John is a guy that I've gotten to know and respect over the last two years in bible study. He is positive, matter of fact, and generally looking strait to God in everything he says and does. I only wish he could sit down and teach me to be much more consistent in all three.
About 15 of us sat in bible study tonight. We always start off with prayer requests taking a while to explain the story behind them. When it was my turn, I asked that we pray about a very nervous sense I've had that God had incorrectly chosen me. I haven't been able to shake the thought that my knowledge and abilities won't be sufficient for the mission He's asking me to go on.
Of course, my overly supportive and slightly biased group of bible study members assured me that I will be wonderful. John turned to me in the middle of all of the comments and said, "Could this be Satan?" Wow. His heart is one that is always open to the Lord. Tonight that was clear. What a sadly misguided notion. God making the wrong choice? I don't think so. Now I think back and realize that no one is prepared to be a missionary. God just leads us through it step by step.
He sends us messages all the time. Sometimes we need to slow down and stop speaking over them. Sometimes, when we can't remember that, He sends someone to talk over us. Tonight was John's last night at bible study. The selfish side of me wishes that weren't so. The faithful side knows that he's going on to bless many more people in the next place the Lord has planned for him.
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