Giving It All To Him

Giving It All to Him. That’s the name of my newsletter. When I first started writing them in August 2009, I chose the name because it was the first time in my life that I’d really stepped out of the way and allowed Christ to work in my life. I felt that I’d finally given up trying to force the future that I wanted, to allow the future that He had planned for me.
I’m blogging today for the first time since August. Wow, guess I’ve been really busy. That’s what I keep telling myself. While I don’t deny that I’m busy here fulfilling the many duties of a missionary, I’m certainly not too busy to sit down for 20 minutes to put some feelings down to share with those that wish to follow me and the progress of my ministry.
My roommate and fellow missionary, Megan Birney, asked me what I was planning to give up for lent this year. Well, I don’t usually give anything up. It’s always been a Catholic thing that I’ve enjoyed not being obligated to do. As I thought more about my selfish outlook, I began to contemplate what Lent really is. It’s spending time before we celebrate Easter to honestly consider the sacrifice that Christ made for me.
So, what am I giving up for Lent? My time. I’m giving up my time to share with anyone interested about my feelings and perceptions at least once a week. God has moved so much in my life that I owe far more than this little blog to Him. I owe Him my life. I pray that one day, at the end of this path of life laid out in front of me, He can be proud of me for really “giving it all to Him.” My time, my resources, my thoughts, and my actions, I want to give all of it to Him.